Ben's Indecision 2012

Four years ago today there was no doubt as to who I was planning to vote for. I was wrapped up in the hype of "Hope" and "Change," thinking that this President would be different. I have grown and learned a lot over the last four years, and while some things have gotten better, there is much that remains the same. I do realize that change doesn't happen over night and there is a lot of compromise that comes with being the leader of the United States. That said, there are still many things that has made me greatly upset and left me not knowing who I will vote for this time around. I have boiled it all down to three analogies, one for each option. 1) Giving a starving person an empty plate and telling them Bon Appetit! 2) The person who consistently and randomly comes up to me and kicks me in the balls. 3) Having to eat an infected shit sandwich that will either kill me, or on the very slimmest of chances, make me stronger. So lets go through these options...

Giving a starving person an empty plate and telling them Bon Appetit!
This option correlates with my desire to go with my heart and conscience, but it is an empty vote (or an empty plate), which is voting for Green Party candidate, Jill Stein. Over the last four or five years I have agreed with the Green Party platform and felt that this is what is truly good for America, but unfortunately the masses rarely hear about what they have to offer, or believe it is unrealistic. While many of the solutions they offer would be difficult to implement, I do not think that it is impossible.
One reason that voting for Stein is a viable option though, is the fact that I live in Hawaii, a very "blue" state, that by the time I get to vote the election may be over anyways. So why not vote for her, I would feel good about myself but did it really even matter? Though, Hawaii may surprise people and could go to Romney, with all the old white idiots out here and a huge Mormon population (2nd largest per capita in the nation). Furthermore, there are a number of problems, some polls are saying that Romney could win the popular vote, while Obama wins the electoral vote. Some polls say that Obama's going to trounce Romney across the board. Either way the problem lies within the deficiency's of the electoral college, which I am not a huge fan of, so perhaps I should play it safe and vote for Obama, which leads me to my second problematic analogy.

The person who consistently and randomly comes up to me and kicks me in the balls.
The past four years have been exactly like the analogy, I'll be walking around, feeling great about the world, then WHAM, kicked in the balls again by that damn kid on the escalator, "I hope his pants get caught and a bloodbath ensues!" Sure, Obama has done great things, but he has also done some pretty shitty stuff too, his staunch support of NDAA, drone attacks, attacks on internet privacy, no single payer system within his healthcare plan, we're still in Afghanistan, I could really go on and on, but I think you get the gist... And I am sick and fucking tired of getting kicked in the balls. Furthermore, on many economic fronts, Obama really isn't that far off from Romney, I know many of you will say, "NO THAT'S NOT TRUE." Really? The only difference is Romney is Capitalism on steroids...  But all this leads me to my final analogy, possibly voting for Mitt Romney...

Having to eat an infected shit sandwich that will either kill me, or on the very slimmest of chances, make me stronger.
Yes, I said it, and yes, I just threw up a little in my mouth as well. The thought makes me sick to my stomach. Perhaps I've been reading way too much Karl Marx, for my Marxism class, but the thought keeps popping in my mind. If Mitt Romney is Capitalism on steroids, and I believe he really would make things in this country much worse than it already is, perhaps we should give all these wingnuts and racists exactly what their asking for, truly free market individualistic unbridled capitalism. If Romney becomes elected, perhaps the conditions of possibility for a revolution can come about. I'm not talking about Marxism, Communism, Socialism, I'm talking about real change, something new, a shift in consciousness, but it only seems possible that things will get better, only if they get a lot worse. Would or could this actually happen, probably not, but their is the slightest of chances that instead of eating an infected shit sandwich, the American spirit could get really sick and come back with a much stronger immune system, but more times than not, it will kill us. I know I know, I'm being dramatic, but this is what goes through my head...

We will see, but as of now, I am still undecided...

Thich Nhat Hanh's Love in Action: the roots of war

An excerpt From Thich Nhat Hanh's Love in Action: the roots of war...

            There is a deep malaise in our society. Just look at the way young people consume drugs, as a way to forget. These are the seeds of war, and we have to acknowledge this if we want to transform them. We have to do it together, looking deeply into the nature of war in our collective consciousness. The war is in our souls.
            Many if us are not healthy within, and yet we continue to look for things that only harm us more. We come home from work exhausted, and we do not know how to relax. We feel a kind of vacuum in ourselves, so we turn on the television. We live in a society where we always feel we are lacking something, and we want to fill it. If we don't turn on

 the tv, we eat or read or talk on the telephone. We are always trying to fill our void with something.

Some people even do social or political work this way. But doing this only makes us less satisfied, hungrier, and we want to consume more. We feel alienated from ourselves. There is so much anger and fear in us, and we want to suppress them, so we consume more and more things that only increase the level of toxicity in us. We watch films that are filled with screaming and violence. We read magazines and novels filled with hatred and confusion. We do not even have the courage to turn off our tv, because we are afraid to go back to ourselves.

            The night I heard President Bush give the order to attack Iraq, I could not sleep. I was angry and overwhelmed. The next morning in the middle of my lecture, I suddenly paused and told my friends, "I don’t think I will go to North America this spring". The words just sprang out. Then I continued the lecture. In the afternoon, one American

student told me, " Thich, I think you have to go to the United States. Many friends there feel the same way you do, and it would help if you go and support them." I did not say anything. I practiced breathing, walking, and sitting, and a few days later I decided to go.

I saw that I was one with the American people, with George Bush, and with Saddam Hussein. I had been angry with George Bush, but after breathing consciously and looking deeply, I saw myself as President Bush. I had not been practicing well enough to change this situation. I saw that Saddam Hussein was not the only person who lit the oil wells in Kuwait. All of us reached out our hands and lit them with him.

            In our collective consciousness, there are some seeds of nonviolence, and President bush did begin with sanctions. But we did not support and encourage him enough, so he switched to a more violent way. We cannot blame only him. the President acted the way he did because we acted the way we did.

It is because we are not happy enough that we had a war. If we were happier, we would not take refuge in alcohol, drugs, violence and war. Young people tell me that the most precious gift their parents can give is their own happiness. If Father and Mother themselves are happy, the children will receive seeds of happiness in their own consciousness, and when they grow up, they will know how to make others happy too. When parents fight, they sow seeds of suffering in the hearts of their children, and with that kind of heritage, children grow up unhappy. These are the roots of war. If children are unhappy, they will look for other things that are exactly like war- alcohol, drugs, and some tv programs, magazines, films, and other violent "cultural products".

            Our society is sick. When we put a young person in this society without trying to protect him or her, he or she will receive violence, hatred and fear every day and get sick. Our conversations, our tv programs, our advertisements, our newspapers, our magazines all water the seeds of suffering in young people and not so young people.

            How can we transform our individual consciousness and the collective consciousness of our society? How can we refrain from consuming more toxic cultural products? We need guidelines- a diet- and we need to practice watering the seeds of peace, joy, and happiness in ourselves. The most important practice for preventing war is to stay in touch with what is refreshing, healing, and joyful inside us and all around us. If we practice walking mindfully, being in touch with the earth, the air, the trees, and ourselves we can heal ourselves, and our entire society will also be healed. If the whole nation would practice watering seeds of joy and peace and not just seeds of anger and violence, the elements of war in all of us will be transformed.

            We must prepare ourselves, whether we have one minute, ten years or one thousand years. If we don't have time, there is no use in discussing peace, because you cannot practice peace without time. If you have one minute, please use that minute to breathe in and out calmly and plant the seeds of peace and understanding in yourself. If you have ten years, please use the ten years to prevent the next war. If you have one thousand years, please use the time to prevent the destruction of our planet.

            Transformation is possible, but it takes time. There are already seeds of peace in those we call "hawks", but they need us to water their seeds of peace and understanding or else their seeds of anger and aggression will continue to dominate them. Do not feel discouraged. Just by your way of looking at things and doing things, you influence others. Approach everyone with love and patience, and try to water the positive seeds in them. We have to help each other, being skillful, kind and understanding. Blaming and arguing never help. People everywhere saw the policemen beating Rodney King. When I first saw that video on French TV, I felt that I was the one being beaten, and I suffered a lot. I think you must have felt the same. All of us were being beaten at the same time. We were all victims of violence, anger, misunderstanding and the lack of respect for our human dignity.
           

But as I looked more deeply, I saw that the policemen that were beating Rodney King were no different from myself. They were doing it because our society is filled with hatred and violence. Everything is like a bomb ready to explode, and we are all a part of that bomb; we are all co-responsible. We are all the policemen and the victim.

            In the practice of mindfulness, we nurture the ability to see deeply into the nature of things and people, and the fruit is insight, understanding, and love. Because we have not practiced deeply enough, violence has become the substance of our society. Putting the policemen in jail will not solve this fundamental problem. We accept violence as a

way of life and as a way to deal with problems. If we are not mindful- if we do not transform our shared suffering through compassion and deep understanding- then one day our child will be the one who is beaten, or the one doing the beating.

It is very much our affair. We have to look at the roots of the problem and not just on the surface.